It is fair, that they don't understand my words. 

It isn't fair that they aren't able to go to school. 

It isn't fair the only book they have been taught to read is the Koran. 

It isn't fair that they stoled my heart. 

Just seven young boys, shooting at birds and lizards with slingshots looking for their next meal. 

It isn't fair that a twelve year old is responsible for 6 younger friends and brothers. 

It isn't fair that when they asked me what i was reading, and my answer didn't make sense to them.

It isn't fair that i have what i have. 

It isn't fair that I cant switch lives with all seven of them. 

They don't know what I have, other than white skin. 

They had pockets filled with rocks and a rubber band in hopes of having a bird.

They don't know what they need. 

It isn't fair that i have a heart that cares, and a mouth and brain that wont always connect. 

God is fair, He is faithful, and He is sovereign.

Father my prayer is for those boys, natural leaders at the birth of their younger brothers, smiles ear to ear, and freedom… Come down on them and use them, because on days like this I feel useless. 

"But King David replied to Araunah, "No, I insist on paying the full price. I will not take for the Lord what is yours, or sacrifice a burnt offering that costs me nothing."

-1 Chronicles 21:24

"For the sins of their mouths, for the words of their lips, let them be caught in their pride. For the curses and lies they utter, consume them in wrath, consume them till they are no more. Then it will be known to the ends of the earth that God rules over Jacob." (Psalms 59:12-13) These are the words of David, this rule applies to David. David was caught in his pride, he numbered his fighting men, even though he knew that God would consume with wrath those who took pride in things of this world. Joab knew this, but David was set on getting a number. The sad thing is that number never mattered. At one point David's number was 600 hundred and the Lord was with him… At one point his number was 1 and the Lord was with him. The fact that his number was now 1,100,000 men  plus God, was no different from David being an army of 1 plus God. So God gave him the option of how the judgement was to be played out, David picked God to judge since he knew God was a merciful God. But this judgement was only taken out physically on the people of Israel. So when it comes to sacrifice David wanted to pay the full price. Because he never paid for his sin, the people did. 

Because of my pride and sin how many people's lifes have I effected? If i was to see a third of the people in my nation die, because of me would i never forget to give God from the deepest parts of me? Or what if one man died because of my sins… to give me life? Would i never forget to give to God from the deepest part of me? I have no application… because this is too simple of an answer. But I always forget.

Happy birthday Tanner :D

Update at the Airport hotel (only place to get a signal)

today we did some outreach ministries/Medical needs to these islands out on lake victoria. it was pretty surreal. some of the people had never been off the island and it was very small with maybe 150 people living on it. it was a ghetto in the literal sense. really really sad to see, but i made some relationships with the people there... very kind, good hearted people. 

and this past week i have just been hanging out with the kids, and helping the women with the dishes... they called me african already ha. im loving it out here. 

our house is pretty great, but we had a storm last night that broke one of the windows. I love it here. 

and the lake is as hot as a bath tub.